tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6268263892362487544.post2840942932730333337..comments2013-08-06T17:51:20.563-06:00Comments on Rachel Danielle: Bible Study Week OneRachel Daniellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09163853419493407888noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6268263892362487544.post-21939822523144417562013-06-12T16:06:50.579-06:002013-06-12T16:06:50.579-06:00Alright. I am back in the real world...for a coup...Alright. I am back in the real world...for a couple of hours at least.<br /><br />1) I've s.o.a.p.-ed before, but I haven't in years. The first day was hard to get through, but after that it got progressively easier. I think that God had slowly been opening my eyes to the fact that we are nothing without Him, and this just 'sealed the deal' s to speak.<br /><br />2) I cannot watch the videos due to the fact that, well, we only have 10gigs of data a month...but I really loved the book. I've only read the first chapter (the book JUST came in) and, so far, everything she is saying in the beginning of the chapter could fit me to a tee, most of the time. I wrestle with doubts /daily/ and it was like she was looking down inside of me and writing about what she saw there. To tell you the truth, there is a reason God showed me this study. I need it oh, so badly. I am right there. I've grown up in a Christian home and I am your quintessential good girl. I believe in God because my parents do, but I think God is asking me to believe in Him because /I/ do.<br /><br />3) first off, I totally feel where you are coming from about guys. I feel very similar, except, thankfully, no guy has ever used me, I'm too reserved and cautious for that to ever happen.<br /><br />The study has been causing some soul searching. It's been helping me to realize that I'm not some terrible person for having doubts, and that I need to come to my own conclusion about Him and who He is. I feel as if He dropped this study in my lap and is looking down at me telling me to stop worrying and to look, to see what is really there. It is as if He wants me to test Him so that when I can come out stronger on the other side, so that I can stop fearing what could happen so badly. But, a large part of me doesn't want me to test Him, what if he doesn't hold up? What if I stop believing?<br /><br />Love,<br />LaurenAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com